Last thing to do. First thing to say.

Boring Saturday. Watching Big Bang Theory again. Sheldon never gets me bored. I think I should watch Sex and The City again. It's been a long time since I've watched it.

Since I have nothing much to talk about, I shall intro a nice song.

傻瓜

其实他做的坏事我们都懂

没有什么不同

眼光闪烁 暧昧流动

闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂

没有什么不同

故作软弱 撒娇害羞

只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂

爱得没那么做作

爱上了我不保留

傻瓜 我们都一样

被爱情伤了又伤

相信这个他不一样

却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样

受了伤却不投降

相信付出会有代价

代价只是一句傻瓜

Maybe that's what i feel now. Life's as it is. 

Moody Me. Moody Sat. Moody Atmosphere. 

When lover's tiff becomes a mundane routine

" This relationship is not working anymore."

And the reply went, " So how".

What does this means? Trying so hard to fight back the tears that are welling up. So that's it? 2 years plus for nothing?

It's gonna be a sleepless night again.

Donkey years

How many mths have passed without me blogging? I've forgotten how to blog and took me ages to finally update part of the layout.

Anyway, life still goes on. Counting 2 years and seven months. The argument still goes on and on. So freaking tired of what to feel. Sad or angry? I don't fucking care. I'm tired. Mentally brain dead.

Short post here. Going back to dreamland, that is if I can sleep well.

On my way home

On my way home from tampines. God damn tired..just finished my 2 days teller training- bee on stage...feeling disappointed that I have to work on Monday.

A song for my loved ones:

Bruno Mars - Grenade

Easy come Easy go
Thatfs just how you live oh
Take take take it all
But you never givef
Should of known you were trouble
From the first kiss had your eyes wide openf
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trashf
You tossed it in the trashf you did.
To give me all your love is all I ever asked cause
What you donft understandf
Is id catch a grenade for ya.
Throw my hand on the blade for yaf
Id jump in front of a train for ya.
You know Ifd do anything for ya.
Ohhh
I would go through all this painf
Take a bullet straight through my brain.
Yes I would die for ya babyf
But you wonft do the same.
Nooooo
Blackf blackf black and blue
Beat me till Ifm am numb tell the devil I said hey when you get back to where youfre from.
Bad women bad women
Thatfs just what you are yeah
You smile in my face than rip the breaks out my car.
Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trashf
You tossed it in the trash yes you did.
To give me all your love is all I ever asked cause
What you donft understand is id catch a grenade for ya.
Throw my hand on the blade for yaf
Id jump in front of a train for ya.
You know Ifd do anything for ya.
Ohhh I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain.
Yes I would die for ya baby.
But you wonft do the same.
If my body was on fire
Ooh you watch me burn down in flames.
You said you loved me youfre a liar cause you never ever ever did baby...
But darling id still catch a grenande for yaf
Throw my hand on the blade for yaf
Id jump in front of a train for ya.
You know Ifd do anything for ya.
Ohhh I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain.
Yes I would die for ya baby.
But you wonft do the same.
No you wonft do the same.
You wonft do the same.
Ohh you never do the same.
Nooooo...

-end-

It's been so long since I've blogged. Always been busy and tired. All my sat n sun are prebooked by him. I haven't got any time for myself. Anyway, I've made the big decision and so I will live with it. Yes. It's still early and I have so much to say. In fact, I have alot to say but it wouldn't be fair to him or anyone else. Maybe I should just go back and sleep. Watch out for those words I've said. Coz it will hurt you or someone else.

When I walked down the street just now, I realized that I'm alone again. How irony was that. Who invented the word "promise"? If promise is not just a seven letter word, why do people still break it? And why make a promise when you know you will break it? Do people make promises under subconsciousness?
Then again, there are people who are willing to fall into the trap and believe the 'promise'.
I'm done talking here..

Happy new year!!! :D It's already 2011! This is freaking fast! Anyway, I'm on my way home from Tampines...It will be the last book in to tekong for him. Wish sat will come faster!

I already made up my mind. I will change my job by march to April. Most likely to be 15th of April. Cause it's pay day! :) Ocbc is still a good workplace for me but I think my passion is not in banking and finance. Perhaps its time to return to my c=o world. I miss chemistry... The fun and interesting chemistry still got hold of my attention.

They say the outside world is scary and full of evil ppl. I am very sure this sentence is right but it doesn't apply to all the ppl out there. There are ppl who are nice and truly sincere to be your friend. And there will always be those minority, but in my case-majority, who are there to frame and backstab you. I've learnt not to despair but to look further down the road.

I always believe this sentence: Not every thing happens the way you want. Just learn how to live with it.

Happy 2011!!! :D