Dreamer*

On my way home

2011-08-05T17:38:00.000+08:00

On my way home from tampines. God damn tired..just finished my 2 days teller training- bee on stage...feeling disappointed that I have to work on Monday.

A song for my loved ones:

Bruno Mars - Grenade

Easy come Easy go
Thatfs just how you live oh
Take take take it all
But you never givef
Should of known you were trouble
From the first kiss had your eyes wide openf
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trashf
You tossed it in the trashf you did.
To give me all your love is all I ever asked cause
What you donft understandf
Is id catch a grenade for ya.
Throw my hand on the blade for yaf
Id jump in front of a train for ya.
You know Ifd do anything for ya.
Ohhh
I would go through all this painf
Take a bullet straight through my brain.
Yes I would die for ya babyf
But you wonft do the same.
Nooooo
Blackf blackf black and blue
Beat me till Ifm am numb tell the devil I said hey when you get back to where youfre from.
Bad women bad women
Thatfs just what you are yeah
You smile in my face than rip the breaks out my car.
Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trashf
You tossed it in the trash yes you did.
To give me all your love is all I ever asked cause
What you donft understand is id catch a grenade for ya.
Throw my hand on the blade for yaf
Id jump in front of a train for ya.
You know Ifd do anything for ya.
Ohhh I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain.
Yes I would die for ya baby.
But you wonft do the same.
If my body was on fire
Ooh you watch me burn down in flames.
You said you loved me youfre a liar cause you never ever ever did baby...
But darling id still catch a grenande for yaf
Throw my hand on the blade for yaf
Id jump in front of a train for ya.
You know Ifd do anything for ya.
Ohhh I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain.
Yes I would die for ya baby.
But you wonft do the same.
No you wonft do the same.
You wonft do the same.
Ohh you never do the same.
Nooooo...

-end-

2011-03-20T10:53:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since I've blogged. Always been busy and tired. All my sat n sun are prebooked by him. I haven't got any time for myself. Anyway, I've made the big decision and so I will live with it. Yes. It's still early and I have so much to say. In fact, I have alot to say but it wouldn't be fair to him or anyone else. Maybe I should just go back and sleep. Watch out for those words I've said. Coz it will hurt you or someone else.

2011-01-18T20:52:00.000+08:00

When I walked down the street just now, I realized that I'm alone again. How irony was that. Who invented the word "promise"? If promise is not just a seven letter word, why do people still break it? And why make a promise when you know you will break it? Do people make promises under subconsciousness?
Then again, there are people who are willing to fall into the trap and believe the 'promise'.
I'm done talking here..

2011-01-02T19:12:00.001+08:00

Happy new year!!! :D It's already 2011! This is freaking fast! Anyway, I'm on my way home from Tampines...It will be the last book in to tekong for him. Wish sat will come faster!

I already made up my mind. I will change my job by march to April. Most likely to be 15th of April. Cause it's pay day! :) Ocbc is still a good workplace for me but I think my passion is not in banking and finance. Perhaps its time to return to my c=o world. I miss chemistry... The fun and interesting chemistry still got hold of my attention.

They say the outside world is scary and full of evil ppl. I am very sure this sentence is right but it doesn't apply to all the ppl out there. There are ppl who are nice and truly sincere to be your friend. And there will always be those minority, but in my case-majority, who are there to frame and backstab you. I've learnt not to despair but to look further down the road.

I always believe this sentence: Not every thing happens the way you want. Just learn how to live with it.

Happy 2011!!! :D

2010-12-27T00:15:00.000+08:00

I feel so lonely without him. It is like an empty hole in my heart. I couldn't help crying into my pillow. I miss his arms around me.

2010-12-22T19:04:00.000+08:00

On my way home. I had a fight with him ytd. It's getting me more and more frustrated nowadays. I have no energy to argue with him. I'm so tired. My work is so stressed up every single day. I don't know who to trust and to whom should I keep my mouth shut. I'm so stressed out. My eyes are straining everyday. Life really sucks. But I'm paid more than last time so I will just shut up for the time being. Everytime I fight with him, I feel so tired and restless. I'm going to concuss now.. Hope I don't sleep till JE.

2010-12-21T00:18:00.001+08:00

Just ended a conversation with him. It's, by far, the most disappointing conversation I ever had with him. I planned to celebrate Christmas with him alone but due to many invitations from friends, we decided to spent the one and only Christmas with friends. Supposingly we are going to spent the night at rachel's house but since laoba asked me out in christmas for a sing session, I asked him whether he want to go or not and he told me anything. Then, he told me just now that he wants to meet his bros on Christmas and asked me to meet them instead.

What is this? I mean his friend's are precious and mine ain't? It's utter bullshit. Its so disappointing. Why all the guys I've been with are mentally challenge? Can't they realise I've plans which they agreed to? Can he just for once stop giving me "surprises"?

Fuck males. They are self centered creatures.

2010-12-19T20:10:00.001+08:00

On my way home on 969...just sent my beloved to tekong...we had a tiff on some really trivial stuff and the aftermath of the fight was laughters and comments on how stupid we were...

Seriously, if a couple gets too cosy and smooth, one of them will start a stupid act to cost the other one to flare up thus leading to an argument...

Why do we do that? Is it because it's a natural thing to do? I can't help wondering is it only me or is it in the genes in all woman?

I have no idea.

2010-12-14T22:41:00.000+08:00

Met up with YiN today. Dined in at Nihon Mura. Had my first taste of sake! Nice and sweet! :) The price of going out late =dark circles and a vert cui-ed look on my face, which is now hanging on my face.

2010-12-13T08:17:00.001+08:00

On my way to work. It's so boring to go work...ESP going work at raffles...my life really sucks...I can only say I suay...haiz...reached raffles..life sucks...

2010-12-05T20:52:00.001+08:00

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us ...

Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits ...

No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves ... Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men ...

My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once ...

Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

Ever thine,

Ever mine,

Ever ours.

2010-12-04T00:11:00.001+08:00

Sitting down at the coffeeshop, waiting for ah Bao they all. Today is the happiest day of the week. Seriously happy that I have really good friends. :) I met up with Jac today at AMK and we ate Popeyes! Super long nv eat it. Anyway, we sat down and talked for a long time. Mostly I did the talking and she just listened all the way. Hahaz...only good friends care to listen to your bullshits.. :) oh did I mention that we watched Rapunzel? Super nice and funny!! Hahaz...I love this movie! :3
Anyway, I'm at ah bao's house now. Waiting for those three musketeers... :)

Wish me luck! :)

2010-12-02T20:12:00.001+08:00

Home finally! Today Sok chin called and msged me to ask me how am I coping and I am really happy. Ytd, Angie and May called me also...I am sad that I'm being transferred out but I am really happy that I know I have such good friends that cares about me! Love my seniors!! :):):) Well at least these gesturse cheered me up during this miserable week. Many more miserable weeks to come! Haiz...anyway, I counted the six months and when it reaches march, off I go man!!! Hahaz...Four Fucking Months to go! Hahaz... :) miss my dear and darlings... My life...blank* not too sucky but not too good either...Not too good becoz I join the wrong company with fucking attitude management Aka HR dept. Not too sucky becoz I got to know alot of good friends. :) maybe it's a blessing for me...but now, I can't balance the blessing and suayness yet. Maybe after a few months ba... :) Anyways, go to bathe..

Ciaoz~~ :)

2010-12-02T07:54:00.001+08:00

On train to work. It's damn early. Normally I wake up at this timing. Suck huh. Haiz. Six months pls come faster! I can't take it anymore even though is only the second day. Urgh! I love my job but I hate the management. The HR ppl have no mercy. Now I know, no matter how good they say about the company, you have to work in the company to then realize this company SUCKS! Why am I saying so much? I still have to endure six months! Correction, it's 4 mths plus. God, please help me though I'm not a christian or catholic. Buddha, my savior, please show the light or sprinkle some water mixed in pomelo leave for me. Help....I feel so sad... :(

2010-12-01T20:45:00.001+08:00

This is bullshit. I don't find it fair at all. I didn't get a notice and they just send me to centre branch. This is barbaric lo. Fuckinh cheebyes. I am frigging pissed off. The management sucks to the very core. So what if it's the biggest bank? It still sucks! One of my colleagues also kana the same treatment. This is totally unacceptable. I am so pissed off now!!!! :(:( The time spent on traveling and the expenses of traveling increased so much!!! I am so gonna leave straight away after six months. Don't even want to stay for one more minute. Urgh! :( pissed pissed PISSED!!!

THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT! :(

2010-11-30T21:59:00.001+08:00

Today is not a very peaceful day. First Joc can't find her $500 (but did find it in the end) then senior got seriously alot of $10 then some bloody shit popped out after I opened account.. Opening account wasn't stated in my job scope. I don't find it fair at all. Stupid shit stuff. Somemore they want to transfer me out. This is ridiculous. I didn't ask for Sunday banking at all. Fuck them seriously. I'm freaking pissed off today. Is it there management or what? If it's, this frigging bank is in some deep shit. No point mentioning the name of the bank. Some years down the road, it will collapse if nothing is done. I'll just try to enjoy my show now. :(

2010-11-29T18:33:00.001+08:00

Today I went bishan to relief one of the tellers. I have no idea who did not come but I know the girl who came later was one of the PTBO from my previous batch. At the end of the day, I thought I excess 5000 buck and ot scared the shit out of me but it was my mistake as I keyed wrongly for the return and advance so phew~ I balanced at the end! :) I had mac for lunch coz they had this order-in thingy so I gained one double cheeseburger meal! :) I know I know...fat rite? But I dun care... I'm freaking hungry I almost fainted...hahaz...I'm now on my way home from bishan and it was fucking packed. Now then I realise the pretty that everyone likes smoke. Well, I shouldn't be surprised anyway.

Just wish when I get home, my items are there on my bed! :)

2010-11-26T18:06:00.000+08:00

Today is a very depressing day. First, I got news that I'll be transferred out to some ulu place...I dun wan to...I love my branch...seriously..Second, I took off tml becoz I tot liang would be coming out today...in the end, he isn't...he isn't coming out until tml afternoon...it is so disappointing...now, I dun have the mood to meet him at all...I know it's unfair coz it's not his fault but this is how I feel...and i am not feeling too good...partly becoz I had an asthma attack just now during work.. I had to literally leave my post to see a doctor... Now, thanks to my inhaler, my windpipe is working normal again... Once again, I can't say TGIF...coz I dun feel happy at all...

2010-11-25T08:24:00.001+08:00

I'm on my way to work. Let's just hope there isn't any extra job for me today. I'm so tired to run here and there...waste my time and money. I'm trying to save here and there they're asking me to spent my hard earned money.. This is ridiculous! We shall see whether there's anything for me to do later. Sometimes I just feel that my branch dun really want me to stay...haiz...we will see den...

2010-11-24T10:23:00.001+08:00

I'm so fucking pissed off. I didn't request to be a relief staff...seriously, if they ask me to transfer, I will quit...I dun care.. What is wrong man? I love my branch. That's all. Now I'm at woodlands ulu branch and I'm sitting there wasting my time.. Fuck you! Cb! I rather help my branch do hatching and filing all day. Cb lahz...WTF...seriously man. I dun even know how to go back from here. Fuck sia...I'm so gonna quit. Take my talent and go somewhere that need no relieving of duties. :(

I hate this bank.

2010-11-23T12:07:00.001+08:00

Working now...SMU branch is really small...damn...I ate cup noodles again...I know it's bad for health but whatever...I'm saving up for future stuff...maybe fly out to see the real world...hahax...though I'm in the reality...which usually sucks...I'm so tired...yawn!!! Liang will only come out on fri...which is like still so long...to me..hahaz...Havinb lunch early is so not a right choice...I'm dozing off...I hope there isn't any crowd today...so balancing will be easier...hahaz...Wen emailed me today..but I haven reply...I'm so afraid we will drift apart...we are such good friends... :( alright...time to go back to work...

Ciao~ �

2010-11-22T21:46:00.002+08:00

It's a lonely day without you talking to me. It's a sad evening without you having a date with me. It's a cold night without you beside me.

2010-11-21T17:33:00.002+08:00

In mac now, using Mac-book. LOL... Its a boring sunday. Suppose to celebrate Shifu's birthday but there isn't any news from the guys so Bryan and I went to 'study' first. Okie...he is studying, I'm just there to waste his lappy's batt. Hahaz! Why mac suddenly remove all the power source? Damn!!! Today Dressabelle update again but I realised I still have 4 more items not yet received so I decided to stop buying anything until I received all my stuff. Mac is really a very noisy and not-at-all conducive place to study or read books or watch movies... Oh ya! Liang bought me a starbucks card and loaded twenty bucks in! Starbucks, I'm coming! However, there's no space in starbucks. This explains why I'm at mac now. Duh!

I'm going over to see whether there's space or not. Wish me luck! :)

PS: Why do I have to wait so long just to see you?

2010-11-14T12:41:00.002+08:00

Time flies fast. It seems like I just had my graduation ceremony yesterday. That was months ago. My boy went in army just a few days ago. My life suddenly changed. I have so much free time and I have no idea where to spent the time on. This is dangerous because I start visiting Dressabelle and Agneselle to buy clothes online. Oh My GOD!! I spent hundreds over dollars on clothes there! Gotta stop splurging on clothes. I'm so broke now and I still have to pay $80+ for my clothes later! Why didn't anyone tell me online shopping is addictive? This is bad for health! But my wardrobe became more fashionable.

Back to my boy, he had been in there for days and I hope he is doing well in there. I know army life is gonna be tough so I just wish Tues will come fast so I can give him a tight hug. :)

Alright, gotta ciao~ Having lunch later! And a good dinner as tml is my sis birthday and my family is celebrating today! Still have no idea what to buy for her. :

PS: Life is so unpredictable. So is my expenses!

2010-10-24T20:06:00.002+08:00

Life's a bitch. That's what I've been told.

"As long as he is willing to be with you...",

" He will come round one day.."

That's all bullshit. He don't give a damn at all. All of them sucks. Cheaterbugs. Maybe its only me. Some guys are really good. I just don't happen to have the fate to meet them. Maybe I should hire a palm reader or a medium so he or she can just tell me how my life already sucks and how it will suck furthermore. I could really save up alot of time and tears.

A suspense is not a good thing. Because it causes so much pain and so much braincells. You definitely let your mind wander and let your heart break. But I wanna ask, for what? All the tears and heartbreaks are for what? To prove that you really loved him before? Or to show people you are the victim in this relationship?

Once again, Life's a major bitch.

2010-09-21T10:16:00.002+08:00

I never thought you need a break from me. Just not you. But you did. When you place such high hopes on someone, it hurts Fucking lot when things fall apart.

Just Gonna Stand There And Watch Me Burn

But That's Alright

Because I Love The Way It Hurts

Just Gonna Stand There And Watch Me Cry

But That's Alright

Because I Love The Way You Lie

I Love The Way You Lie...

2010-08-15T16:42:00.002+08:00

Now at Liang's house nuah-ing.

Damn SMRT. Don't even give warnings. I just handed in my Poly card just for that $8.80. I feel so stupid now. I collected all my cards and now this happened to me. What am i doing? What the fuck are they hinting? I should be an adult now? Stop acting like a poly student? DAMN!!! Quote from America Virgin:" Adults are for pussy."

Nvm, I am going to continue nuah.

Bye world.
Bye my beloved ezlink card.

2010-08-03T14:40:00.001+08:00

Going to gf's house now! Didn't meet Liang^2 today. Hahahz! Salad Salad!! :)

Adios Amigo~~

2010-08-03T02:43:00.006+08:00

I've just read my older posts and WOAH! I wrote so much on Nov last year! Maybe its the waiting time in school that made me go crazy. I'm now sitting in front of my com, one hand typing and one hand wif prawn crackers. :) I know its bad to have crackers at night but in my case, I don't give a shit! I eat suppers with my bros and I don't care. I like my life as it is now.

Recently went to Jalan Kayu for prata and Oh man its good! okie I have no idea how to spell kayu but i certainly hope it's the right one. I had three prata and a full plate of indian rojak! Too bad I didn't take any pictures of the food but I took pics f my bros!! :)

More recently, I was stalked and influenced by a guy-boy. Introducing the guy-boy who wrecked my life and turned it upside down:

Mr Tan Weiliang.

The Big Bad-方大同 Look alike-Cheena Guy.

As much as I hate to say, I am no longer single. BUT I'm still available! Hahahaz...Just a quote from my dearest Laoba. :) He is the guy that photocopied my personality and pasted on to himself. In short, his personality and character are totally like mine. Even shorter, he is just like me. :)

Great minds think alike, Great people are alike! :)

2010-08-03T02:38:00.001+08:00

Time flies faster than we thought.

So people with love out there, keep in mind to stay close and relate to your loved ones as there won't be enough time for everything.

Or anything.

2010-07-28T16:53:00.001+08:00

Some people dying to fall in love,

while others just don't wanna go that far.

I'm one of those.

2010-07-02T03:59:00.001+08:00

Late Night Vists. Heart Pumping Hard. Adrenaline Rushed.

What comes next?

2010-07-01T02:58:00.002+08:00

Sitting in front of the com thinking of something to write but failed to do so. I just cannot stop thinking of him. This must really stop. It will be a fatal blow to me. I don't wanna be that stupid. I just wanna stay away from him.

Coz it won't work.

2010-05-24T18:30:00.005+08:00

Finally graduated from SP. A big step forward. I never thought I can even graduate from SP. It seemed so hard to do it. I had a great day after my grad ceremony. Shuying drove me, Frau, YiN and Jac to orchard. Bren came in later. Oh ya, the only thing I’m pissed off was my lousy new phone. Yes. I’m saying my iphone is lousy. It hangs, just like my bro’s ipod. Or maybe I’m just not fated to use Apple’s stuff. First lost the ipod then iphone hanged at the impt photo-taking time. Urgh!

I’m really sorry to leash my temper on my mum. Sorry Dear
Mother. I won’t deny that my temper is foul and I’m really sorry. And sorry to
my dad who had to see me scolding my mother and not knowing what to do. It’s
just a stupid phone breakdown.

Back to orchard, we went to Wheelock, supposing to fix the iphone but there wasn’t any service for iphone there anymore. So everyone attention pls! Don’t waste your time going there thinking you will fix your iphone. Anyway, we went starbucks and we talked about lotsa things and went home with a lighter heart. –END-
Redang was good. The sand, the sea and the people. Music maybe, food uh-hem, no wireless uh-uh! Its really like the one in xia ri mo mo cha movie. So beautiful! I know the sea water is salty but not that salty and in the end, I got dehydrated just by drinking sea water. Which of course happened accidently. The worst is the journey back and fro. 12 fucking hours! oh my god!

Anyway, I'm stopping here.

Good day to all and I'll write more after 31st!

2010-04-23T02:12:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking alot lately. Was it just me or were there people out there with the same problems that I had? FYI, it's family violence. I could never understand why some people could endure the stress and the emotional breakdowns, for I could never do that. If your mother sided the violent side, was it normal to be angry? I was and still am under the catergory of "family violence". It wasn't those serious types that appeared in the news so I never thought it could be a topic that I can elaborate on.

Perhaps that's just my fate.

Or I'm just those suffer-in-silence type.

I'm not very sure.

My storY Part 8

2010-03-26T03:44:00.002+08:00

Days passed. I had been thinking about the weird things that happened these few days. Though it never did make any sense, I felt like I'm sort of connected to it. Was my illness starting to act again or am I too sensitive to the stuffs around me? Last time my illness acted up, I almost believed my mum when she told me that we were not normal and she couldn't say any reasons to cover up her lies.

" Hey honey, how's school today? I've heard from Mrs Stockington that your school will be having this great party this Friday, are you attending it?"Mum took the chicken-veg pizza out from the oven.

"Hi mum. Yes, I'll attending the party. It's kinda compulsory so leaves me no choice. Uh-erm, mum, can I talk to you for a second?" I shifted uncomfortably.

"What's the matter honey? Is there something wrong?" Mum placed the pizza down and gestured me to sit beside her. She looked worried. This made things worse. I didn't know how to bring up the topic.

"Erm...It's actually nothing. I just...I really don't have the outfit for the party and I'm kinda short of money now. I'm thinking whether you could help me?" I stared at my toes, trying hard not to blush. That wasn't the real problem. The real problem was me having loop holes in my memory. I couldn't remember what I did in school today and how I got back home. I couldn't recall the attack in school, not until Josh ran into me and told me that I was actually just a few metres away. I was simply freaked out. At first, I did blame those stupid medicine I'd taken to cure my over-sensitive-hyperactive illness but I took in the fact that those medicines did not affect me during the period I'd taken them so it didn't make any sense that the side effects would pop out now.

"Oh honey! I didn't realize you were worrying about that. Of course I'll help you. Let me see, take this 500 bucks to buy the nicest outfit and the most glamorous accessories to go with it." Mum smiled at me, waving me to eat the pizza.

I took my mum's Volvo and drove to the best and the biggest apparel shop and braced myself for the ultimate big shopping. Since I'd spun a tale of not having enough money and gotten myself a huge sum of money, I might as well make use of it. Party was never my thing. If it's not for the compulsory rule, I would have gladly missed it. As I was looking for a slot to park, I saw from far a guy with familiar features that sent jolt to my brains as well as chill to my skin. I waited and waited for the guy to walk past me...

To be continued...

2010-03-19T15:34:00.003+08:00

End of the exams means end of the world...i've nothing to do now...except work work and work...its so boring...my life is so boring... i dun even know whether i wanna go psb or not...its not a light decision to make...i can't imagine myslef struggling to face C=O again...but if i didnt further my studies, it will be a waste...haiz....now i just wanna wait for my results to come...

i wish wen come back now...so we can go shopping and go play like before...just like the day before, on 17th, i went to orchard point's OG to shop...the scene there was worst den a scene in a club...so squeezy and so stuffy...i bought lots of stuff, 2 pillows, 1 bolster, 2 pillow covers, 1 very very nice lipstick and 1 very very ex swimsuit... costed me 124++ bucks....so expensive...but its a breakthrough...coz i had never bought any stuff that much for myself before...so its a very good breakthrough...though my pocket also had a very big "breakthrough"...

Ps : so long so long... :)

2010-02-10T23:56:00.003+08:00

Just came back from work...it's a hectic day...I'm so tired....AOC on friday...Think i'm dying soon le...i cant find the will to even get up and bathe...but i will..i'm giving off citrusy smell...too many mandarin oranges....my life sux!

Despair is the only word i wanna say out loud...

2010-01-29T14:41:00.002+08:00

I'm in school waiting for time to pass...I'm working later also...haiz...i dun feel like working anymore..its killing me...somemore it's new year season..will be super duper hetic...i'll lose my voice again...WHY WHY WHY...haiz...now watching video..i feel like sleeping...hope i can swim tml..Yawns~~

2010-01-29T01:40:00.003+08:00

today i went to donate blood but the ppl there said i dun have enough iron!!! OMG! WHYWHYWHYWHY??

My storY Part 7

2010-01-29T00:51:00.004+08:00

"Please! No no no...Take me instead...don't hurt her.." a woman screamed, hugging a little girl and breaking the eerie silence in the forest.

His eyes shifted, now looking at her. His face perfect, flawless. The glint of his sharp pointed teeth made her shiver. The deep crimson pupils burnt her eyes when she looked at him with fear. The air held still and all she could hear was the beating of her heart. With a smile, he bore into her eyes and plunged deep down into her soul. She opened her eyes to only see herself drowning in lava. She screamed at the top of her lungs but no one was there to help. He laughed softly, watching her writhing in pain. She felt thousands of knife stabbed right through her and left her there to bleed to death. Her skin burnt and the soreness was killing her fast. She felt lightheaded and was going to give up.

"Wait. I'm the one you want. Spare her and her child." A velvet voice came out of nowhere.

She heard those words. The lava seemed to fade off and her sense of sight was recovering. The scene changed back to the dark place. She fell to the ground, gasping for air. The cold air burnt her lungs. Beads of perspiration clouded her sight. She squinted her eyes to look for the source of the voice. In the shadows, a dark figure moved. Not knowing why, she felt hope. The man wasn't looking at her anymore. Instead, he was staring at the shadows. She reached out to hug her child but she wasn't there. Panic and fear engulfed her. It was getting colder. Her breathing accelerated and mist started to form everytime she breathe. She shouted for her child but she couldn't find her. She ran through the forest , fell and stumbled a few times. When she reached a small stream, she saw from far, a streak of light escaping from the thick, vast forest. She sprinted towards the direction and embraced the sunlight.

I woke up with a shock, gasping for air. What was that about? I shook my head and felt a wave of tiredness and with my head hitting the pillow, I drifted off again, not remembering anything...

To be continued...

2010-01-24T23:00:00.003+08:00

I hate my life! everything is giving up on me even this fucking blog i wrote twice and failed to lauch!

2010-01-19T14:45:00.002+08:00

I'm watching Julie & Julia now in school library...Its fascinating..I love cooking of course! And France...*laughs* I like watching shows like Sex in the city, The Devil who Wore Prada and those shows which are very influencing... When I watched Sex in the city, it really draws my ful attention. Not totally on the sex part. To be true, its the way the wear their clothings, the way they match the clothes. Fashion. YES for me. I'm not a very good artist nor am I creative. But my love towards Art is very strong. I like designing stuffs. Shoes, Clothes and more. I like watching Fashion shows. One of my dreams is to be able to watch a fashion show and I will be sitting at the front. To sum up, Sex in the city is a very inspiring show. Not many people thinks that way though.

I'm going to continue my J&J show. :)

2010-01-17T22:16:00.001+08:00

I fell down on shuying's bdae. It hurts alot. I swear.

Ps: heels..i will conquer you one day!

2010-01-11T13:49:00.000+08:00

I lost my reputation at shuying's bdae...

I'm a goner...

My storY Part 6

2010-01-05T19:34:00.007+08:00

" This day's black fate on more days doth depend. This but begins the woe others must end."

He spoke quietly, his hand still lingered on my hair. My face felt cold against his ring on his middle finger. I examined it and realised that I'd read about it while working on a history essay for Mr Benette. It was a sacred item from the early 18 centuries. It must have been a hand-me-down item. He moved his hands to cup my face and I wasn't surprised that his hand was colder. It froze my skin upon each touch and I shivered unwillingly. Staring into my eyes, I had a feeling that he was reading my mind but he couldn't. The pain and the confusion surfaced when he let go of my face. I wanted to ask him who he was but he shifted so fast that my hands were still hanging in mid-air. He stood very still in front of me and was in deep thoughts. Finally after a few minutes, he turned to face me.

" The danger is gone. You will forget everything I've said and you will forget me. Now be gone. And be safe."

His last words lingered inside my ears and everything went black.

To be continued...

2010-01-05T19:04:00.002+08:00

Friendships or Friendsinks?

A fine day to start but a bad day to end.

Things get worse when friends turn their back on each other.

I've been to that scenario before and it hurts to be back there again.

People really have to think twice before saying anything that hurts others.

When one's temper cool, pain inflicts like knife stabbing the heart.

And in the end, both parties are hurt.

Why should we treat ourselves like that?

2009-12-27T17:00:00.005+08:00

Christmas!!! but it's over... lots of things to say...let me see...oh..my christmas tree!

Oldies~

My christmas tree!

next:

Mac-Star bucks mugging and Ah bao's house mahjong-ing..

Cuppa~

Bryan's n mine~

Starbucks~

Bryan playing com~

Lao ba reading U weekly ( snatched from me so I'm free to snap pics)

Me~

Bryan n me~

Lao ba n me ( Like idiots) LOL~

K-box session & shopping with Yoke!

Yoke n me~

Singing like crazy ppl~

Our drinks~

Hectic week!!!

2009-12-22T01:00:00.003+08:00

yoke n me

rp n me

yoke n rp

US!

yep! 3 of us!

Today i meet yoke and rp in school to pass up the first draft of our fyp report. We printed $12 of paper. It is a fucking thick stack of papers. Luckily we don't have to bind it. Cheaper this way. So after meeting kwok, we went to tiong bahru to have our dinner. Hotpot! Its 20 buck only. So cheap! Obviously, we ate alot. But technically speaking, yoke ate alot. We ate for 4 hours and we didn't even realise that the shopping mall was closing soon.

BTW, we saw this guy who is so handsome! its a caucasian who looks like Taylor Lautner. Cool rite? even yoke and rp also say good-looking. Naughty rp suggest to take handphone no from him!!!

Hope rp enjoys today!

2009-12-21T14:31:00.000+08:00

Good Night, Good night!

Parting is such sweet sorrow,

that I shall say good night till it be morrow.

2009-12-21T14:21:00.002+08:00

Christmas...Christmas...Christmas...

I like Christmas most...its the romantic season...the snow, the gifts, the people...though i will be alone this Christmas, but i'm sure it will be a good one.. :) hope i can have good Christmas forever...

I rushed my reports over these few days so i couldn't find the will to continue my story...partly because i couldn't come up with something nice...I'm really tired after all...but now, i must make sure i finish all the formal reports within this week and then i can relax without worries...

i'm growing fat non-stop. it disgust me. but i couldn't find the will to exercise..i'm so lazy when it comes to sports...i'm those that can fall down even when i'm on flat surface. Running seems to be the last option for me..but i know running can help alot in buring fats... >.<

I wish everyone a Merry Merry Christmas..

For those who have partners.

For those who are single like me.

2009-12-21T03:36:00.002+08:00

I finally finish my first draft for fyp...phew...i'm all alone at startbucks now...today's drink is peppermint mocha Venti! its so nice! i'm so sleepy now...Urgh!!! i hate reports...listening to christmas songs~~i'm gonna watch some movies now!

It's such a lovely season~

2009-12-14T15:55:00.000+08:00

One fire burns out another’s burning,

One pain is lessen’d by another’s anguish.

-Romeo and Juliet. ACT I Scene 2.

My storY Part 5

2009-12-13T00:34:00.007+08:00

" Dad?" I whispered.

The trees swayed hard and something behind them let out a breath. It sounded like a sigh to me. The scent of the breath was so naturally sweet that i could swear it wasn't human. I squinted my eyes to get a clearer look but a loud piercing scream diverted my attention. It was just second when i looked back into the trees and sensed no one there anymore. I sighed and ran back to school to find the cause of the scream.

As I ran towards the front of the field, i hit something hard and fell to the ground. My head spun when i tried to look up and when i managed to stand up, he was what i saw.

Standing in front of me was a man, no older than mid-twenties, with skin as pale as moonlight. His presence made me felt conscious of my appearance. He looked as if he had just walked out from a fairy tale. His black hair was messy and he was dressed in a very big buttoned shirt and a pair of bermudas which would look odd on others.

On the contrary, what caught my sight was his red eyes.

"Don't go back to school. It's dangerous now." He spoke quietly.

And definitely his scent.

I stood there like an idiot not knowing what to do. In any case, i had just obeyed a stranger's command. My heart raced again when he moved so fast towards me. He held his hand up to brush my hair away from my face and his forehead creased. Beneath that perfect face displayed thousands of emotions.

To be continued...

2009-12-12T13:08:00.002+08:00

I survived exams...now my main goal will be getting all the useless caffine out of my system...If coffee can make me stay awake, i won't be drinking 4 cups in a row. Damn!

Ohhhhh!!!! I watched New Moon yesterday with yoke yee and shuying!!! Its so nice~ SOSOSOSO nice!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!! I'm like hyperventilating man...When Taylor Lautner took off his shirt, I could almost hear every girl's sharp intake of breath. He is absolutely gorgeous. I envy Taylor Swift man. Rob Pat is also very hot. WoW! Pretty Kristen Steward & Hot Rob Pat!

Goh Shuying! Both of them are mine!!! :P

2009-12-10T01:11:00.002+08:00

Yep. Still mugging my fat ass off. Today a different drink - Iced cuppacino. Seriously, I'm caffine intoxicated. Try tesing the amount of caffine in me. So what's the definition of cosmetic then? I don't give a fucking damn! I miss drawing stuff. I miss my movies and I miss being myself.

I watched a movie today. " No Reservation" by Caterine Zeta-Jones. A nice show that i would recommend to others.

I think i should stop here. Bryan beside me is going to sleep.

I hate exams. Did i say that before?

2009-12-09T02:18:00.002+08:00

Mugging at Starbucks now. Life sucks when there are exams. The only one thing nice now is to drink Dark Mocha Frap. Yummy. Smacking my lips.

I hate those Fucking exams.

2009-12-04T10:24:00.002+08:00

Having English lesson is to have a conversation with Yokeyee. Do make me laugh! She is not even here yet!

Tired! There she comes!

2009-12-03T01:00:00.001+08:00

If only i am born rich.

My storY Part 4

2009-11-29T21:25:00.006+08:00

" Hey Alice, er, you've got time later on?" Josh asked me, shifting uncomfortably. He was a guy from my spanish class who sat beside me.

"Oh, er I need to cook for mum." What an idiot.

Apparently, I wasn't very good with guys. First, I was more to the suffer-in-silence type. Second, people tended to shun me instead of talking to me. It might be why I'd kept everything to myself. Juliet was the only person who was close to me but i chose not to tell her anything. Every time i thought of her, i would think of dad. I missed him even though I barely saw him once. I craved for the story about him but I knew that if i mentioned dad, mum would slip into the darkness again. I'd been there before so I would never want mum to go through that again.

" It's okay then. Maybe next time." Josh smiled shyly at me.

I smiled at him. He seemed to be a nice guy but still, i was the "wierd" one afterall.

I was thinking of ditching gym class while i was walking away from the tall bushes towards the small table for my bag. As i was going to turn around unwillingly to head for the gym, something at the corner of my eye caught my attention. I turned to look at it and found myself staring at a tree. The tree seemed weird. I didn't notice that just now. The angle of the branches protruding out were totally abnormal. It looked like someone had played with it and tried to knead it like a dough. Without knowing what i was doing, I started to move forward, a step at a time towards the odd-looking tree. The feeling of fear engulfed me like an old friend. I felt my hair stood up on my arm. Something about the tree gave me a very familiar feeling.

Was it dad?

I looked around frantically, searching for signs that might lead me to him. It was a good five years since i felt that way. The panic in me grew. It had to be him. I prayed hard for it to be dad. I wanted to know why he left me after i was born. Why he didn't want me at all.

As i was walking nearer, a growl made me shudder and took a step back.

To be continued...

2009-11-28T23:03:00.003+08:00

My day was ruined by the reports, and of course the deadline.

I wasn't able to concentrate when there were so many good movies waiting for me to watch them! I gotta cancel HBO when i can. Its so disturbing when the good stuff only comes out at exam periods. Fuck those producers. Fuck those who arrange the time slots. Man i'm tired. Even when i've slept so long.

I'm such a terrible person. I should have known that i can't cope with stress. Maybe my mum can send me off to the third world country so that i can pass off by picking up knitting or wadsoever. The TV's on again and there goes my attention which i've managed so hard to gather for the past hour. Forget about graduating coz i'm gonna give up on mst. I hate studying. Why can't i cook so that at least i can be some freaking rich chef? or a coach for something? or maybe an artist, but i've have to starve to death coz nobody will buy my freaking ugly art.

Some people says that you can only pull a cow to the river bank and whether its gonna drink the fucking water is up to its own will. Maybe i'm that fucking cow. But i prefer horse.

I'm gonna crash my bed and work tml morning. I'm so digusted at my work. Why would i wanna work at there at the first place? I don't fit in there.

*SIGH*

2009-11-28T14:33:00.002+08:00

I hate reports! URGH!

The truth

2009-11-26T21:45:00.002+08:00

well, some things are best left unsaid...but ignorant people choose to voice out their precious opinions...well, you are not a friend to me...as well as the group of people who thinks the way you think. They are just as ignorant as you are. But they are worse than you. They have no stand and they don't think on their own. They are worse than dogs. At least dogs are faithful. They might turn the back on you when you are in trouble.

I know that i've issues but you are pretty messed up too. I'm so glad that i've nothing to do with you anymore. and with your worse-than-dogs friends.

You know who you are.

So Beware.

2009-11-24T21:52:00.001+08:00

My life is goin downhill now.

URGH!

DARN IT!

2009-11-24T01:25:00.000+08:00

Death is peaceful.

Easy.

Life's harder.

2009-11-23T13:01:00.002+08:00

Damn! have to wait for lesson...2 hours of nth-to-do session...My com had officially gone crazy. i'm grieving over it. Thats sad. Thats devastating. But what can i do?

I feel like ditching the class, just like last 2 weeks...

DAMN!

My storY Part 3

2009-11-20T23:44:00.006+08:00

My mum, Juliet, told me, when i was still young, that dad died in a car crash. I didn't believe that because whenever i mention dad, she would get lost in her thoughts and totally ignore me. I'd heard her talking in her room at night when she thought that i was asleep. There would always be other voices, voices that were so different from us. However, i'd never mention of dad anymore since the night i had a glimspe of him.

It was 1993. I was going to drift off to my dreamland when I heard voices from Juliet's room. She was crying her heart out so i thought i ought to go over to comfort her. I reached for the doorknob and opened the door silently. From the small opening, i saw a person. Probably the most beautiful person i've ever seen. He's tall and white. Really white like he's suffering from serious albino problem. He had dark circles that might be permantly painted on his beautiful face. He spoke in a very velvet voice, telling my mum something about me. Juliet was really upset. I'd never seen her cry like that before. I withdrew my breath and gasped silently. Many questions popped out in my mind. Without knowing what happened, that person suddenly froze and his head whipped into the direction where i was standing. He looked into my eyes, his red eyes piercing into mine and it freaked me out but i realised that there were pain in them. I stood back and then without any notice, he disappeared into thin air. I ran into the room, only to find Juliet standing up looking at me with hatred. I know that was dad, i just knew it.

I didn't speak of him anymore. I saw many similiarities between us. The same red eyes, the whiteness, though i'm not as white as him. I didn't mention the red eyes, did i? Mine's a darker shade of red; it's almost black. Maybe that's the reason i freak people out under sunlight. I used to think that maybe i'm different from other people, like i'm some sort of monster.

To be continued...

REPORT!!!!!

2009-11-20T15:03:00.002+08:00

now sitting in front of the com doin my fucking reports....but listening to The Great Escape....by boys like girls...yeah...nice!!! talking to Wen now...but eating cup noodles...what a day..still have to go work later...boring...

" Coz we are finally free tonight!!"

YEAH~~ its raining today...heavy rain...i love it when it rains....its so cooling...not a bit like air-con...its natural...my dad is laughing now...watching taiwan variety show... i borrowed 2 disc from school lib..wanna watch yesterday but i was so tired yesterday!

i went to meet shifu and gang for shifu and alex's birthday....they suggested hougang but are they mad? all of us live near yishun but yet they wanna go somewhere so far! so i told them they can go SSC's Ashton....they are so like cave man....didnt' know SSC is sembawang shopping centre...tot it's singapore science centre....but that's not it! they dun know what is ashton!!! thats the final line...i really wondered what they are now...* laugh* Alex have to explain to them how to order the food...funny....after that, they say they were still hungry so went to Kopitiam to eat somemore....cavemen....soonhai went to play games in the very 'BIG' timezone while the rest watched G.I.joe playing next door...finally the cavemen were full and we went home....they rest when ah bao's house for mahjong! i went home and crashed on my bed...tiring day...

Time for datasheets and Fucking reports... * sigh*

2009-11-17T22:56:00.002+08:00

Time passes.
Even when it seems impossible.
Even when each tick of the second hand aches like a pulse of blood behind a bruise.
It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does.
Even for me.

i'm hungry

2009-11-16T11:59:00.002+08:00

in lib now with pei pei beside...yep...she is staring at me typing the words out... :) i'm freaking hungry but i don't know what to eat...you heard what pei pei said...she say print finish can eat...and she is still beside me ...still dun wanna go there and print.... she is STILL beside me...sitting and talking to eeyin... oh finally...she went to print the papers...i like the keyboard here...nice to type...she came back..."LAUGH"

tired...of...waiting....to...go....class...

Adios Amigo!

Loving it!

2009-11-14T21:55:00.002+08:00

I'm working thru Breaking Dawn and don't even wanna miss a single sec on anything else...

Call me a nerd.

Call me a bookworm.

But I just love reading books.

My storY Part 2

2009-11-12T18:24:00.004+08:00

" Good Lord Annabelle! Are you alright?" My mum asked when i just got home. She's the only one who called me by my middle name. She came up with the name whlist my father came up with 'Alice'.

" I'm fine, mum."

I didn't really wanna explain much about the nightmare i had during Trig lesson. I thought it was just a short dream and i would forget it sooner or later. My mum shot me thousands of question but i walked up the stairs telling her i'm really tired. I lay on my bed, thinking about the essay on shakespears' Romeo and Juliet then suddenly, a gust of wind blew gently on my face. Was that my imagination or was there a dark figure looming outside my window? It can't be. My room was on the second floor. No one could loom or hover outside unless...i hadn't finish my thought but a piercing scream diverted my attention. I hopped down my bed and ran downstairs. Two things came in mind: I'm an idiot; I'm really dumb. It was just the tv doing all the effects. My heart lurched when this time, i really did see the dark figures. It was a fraction of a second when it disappeared.

I woke up feeling horribly sick. It had been like this since the day i dreamt about the guy with fangs. Sometimes when i'm alone, i did think of what he wanted to say to me.

To be continued...

in class not paying attetion

2009-11-12T08:44:00.002+08:00

the lecturer in class now is singing us a lullaby...i dunno why i brought laptop to skul...its freaking heavy and we are not gonna use it anyway...FUCK! i slept at 2 something yesterday...so i'm knida down...still trying to recharge my batts...my bro came home this morning at around 5 somehthing and he puked! like always...and the funny thing is he slept in his undies only...I"M TIRED!!! i'm really happy that i can msg Wen thru phone....then i won't have to observe the timing to call her...
wow....the lecturer is really droning on something so BORING!

Ciao~ i'm really fucking tired...

Crabbie attacks

2009-11-11T23:25:00.002+08:00

Today yy, xianyong n me went to lavender for crabs...reiping suppose to come but she had something on so there goes the plane....the crabs were nice though...after the crabs attack, we went bugis to shop... walk walk here run run there...bugis's clothes are so typical...its more for those who are very thin and boney....anyways, we ate oyster meesua at I love Taimei...its nice and i love the fried tofu...Smack my lips baby! :) after that, evil yy dropped us at bukit panjang....*roll my freaking eyes*...so bad of her to make me take lrt back to cck and then take mrt back to yishun....but can't help it isn't it? she did a very good thing by driving us to destination... :) by the time i reached home, its already 7pm...tired but fun day....

going off!!!

My storY Part 1

2009-11-10T23:37:00.006+08:00

It was a dark night. Alice wanted to sleep in but the sound of the rain made her restless. She had this very bad feeling before. Fear engulfed her when she heard footsteps coming near her room. Slowly, her door creaked opened. No one seemed to realise someone had broke in to the house. She thought of many ways to run away and the kick to shin moves. The sound of the footsteps were getting louder and she could not move an inch.
The temperature in the air decreased rapidly and Alice swore that she could see her breath in air...The footstep stopped at her bedside and the blanket was pulled off. Alice turned around and saw this man, a beautiful one. It's a weird word to describe a man but he was really flawless like a picture. The man smiled, flashing a pair of sharp, pointed teeth at Alice but he made no moves to kill her. When the man was about to say something, Alice felt a sharp pain on her head.

" Ouch!" She cried out.

" Yeah Miss Alice Annabella Hale! You better feel the pain or else you will feel something worse then a whack on your head!" Mrs Dillon scolded.

" Yes, Mrs Dillon"

To be continued...

twilight~

2009-11-07T21:43:00.002+08:00

Ladies and Gentlemen!!!! i've bought my Twilight books today!!! i'm freaking excited and i wanna read new moon!!! oh ya...i bought Twilight dvd which costed me 12.90....the quality sucks! regretted but anyway, i'm gonna watch it now!!!

FUCK!

tml working again...BORING!!!

luck doesn't stay long

2009-11-05T23:47:00.002+08:00

i'm in HUGE debt....went mahjong today and lost everything...guess my luck is goin downhill again....i'm so tired now but i don't feel like sleeping at all....i've been waiting for my series of twilight books for almost a week....i can't wait anymore...its making me crazy...i really wanna read the series...i watched the show 6 times? and the funny and scary thing is i still wanna watch and don't seem to get tired of it.....have you met anyone like me?

i need to go bugis for my training tml and its gonna be a long and hard day for me....i didn't take my dinner today...i feel hungry but i guess its fine to skip dinner....at least i might have a chance to slim down...i am beginning to suspect that i might even get fat by drinking water....i hope i'm wrong man....if that's the case, i might as well not eat or drink anything....thats one thing i like about being vampire is the dont have to eat...at least they won't need to choose...they have staple diet... ;)

alrighty right...i'm tired and in HUGE debt...let me sleep and forget everything...

a boring day...

2009-11-04T15:10:00.002+08:00

i'm sitting in front of my com, rotting away....

my life's like a piece of blank paper....now, nothing seems to interest me much...i don't even feel like eating...or sleeping...

my bro is watching this stupid movie with a stone monster that died becoz the guy stabbed it with a knife...i think i can be a better director...Boring day...but lucky i have my clique...going for basketball later...i hope i enjoy...

i borrowed 2 dvds back home from school...John Tucker must die and my super ex-girlfriend...look fun to me...since i have nothing to do... *sigh*

i'm so lonely...

my dreams now...

2009-11-02T20:19:00.002+08:00

i'm dreaming...flying to arizona now...moving on to seattle den to new york...hahaz....i wan to go overseas...i dun wan to be trapped in singapore...its a nice place but yeah, its too small...i wan to explore other places, meet different ppl...darn it...why am i that poor? FUCK! if i am rich, i will fly everywhere i wan...anytime i wan...FUCK! i will so not be stucked in my house using this damned com...FUCK!

i bought my contacts already but my eyes still swollen...*sigh* why? ぬんですか...

ending my dreams here...its true...reality sucks!

work sucks!

2009-11-02T00:05:00.002+08:00

i broke 2 nails while working today...FUCK! in the end i cut all my nails short....FUCK! hahaz.... i now listening all the twilight songs...well i kinda like one of the songs...but its not a song...its a lullaby...hahaz....den some very funny rhythms...hahaz....some i just like the beginning den the back like erm...you know...hahaz...the tune became very funny...hahaz....
oh ya...i pre-ordered the whole series of twilight books...hahaz..and i'm gonna hunt for the dvd also...hahaz...i like vampires and magical stuffs...that why i like harry potter series also...hahaz.... Oooo...i'm so tired...i slept just now...its like so weird...i hardly take afternoon nap but i took it today..hahaz...my eyes swollen....hmmm....i think i see too many guys le...hahaz....lol...damn bored...

Yawn!

Time to say goodbye to my old blog

2009-10-31T14:52:00.002+08:00

hahaz....i changed my blog skin le....actually i just wanted to change the fonts...but sadded, the new version don't have the font i want....haiz...in the end, i end up changing the whole thing but i kinda like it...so not big deal...i shed the emo side ef me long time ago....hahaz....
btw, i watched twilight ytd...wow...i tot this movie won't catch my attention so i didnt really watch it when it came out...its when i went bryan's house and he lent me the first book of twilight, which is twilight, hahaz...den i started reading the book and it caught my attention when i read the first chapter...wow...i love vampires stories...like underworld, resident evil...blah blah blah...hahaz... i wonder how is it like to be a vampire....sometimes when i bleed, i suck my blood and i like that smell....hahaz...a kinda of rusty liquid....
but then, there is no vampire in this world...perhaps in the western countries but not singapore... definitely not...hahaz...we only have those that need a piece of paper to stick on their forehead to control them... hahaz....

its a boring day for me...haiz....lonely but i like it....

in skul during lesson

2009-10-29T09:29:00.002+08:00

now in skul watching this very old skul clip...but kinda funny....todya damn sian....have to bring laptop to skul....haiz....the eng teacher lo...looking down the lt, ppl using fb, blog, blah blah blah...hahaz....this clip is funny...one mistake lead to damn lots of mistakes...like snow ball accumulating liddat....hahaz....now tired le...later jialat sia...the ppl in the clip talk so funny...hahaz....its so scary to see the ingredients in the tablets got mixed up and even the labels too....eat le drop dead next moment...hahaz....anyways, gotta run on...suppose to do tutorial...

skul reopen

2009-10-20T14:03:00.003+08:00

so sian in skul now...haiz....now doin fyp...URGH!!! supposingly can go home le... =.= i long time nv blog le....something wrong with my blog and my com...they cant seem to connect...hahaz....now at a room we booked...so boring...hahaz...yy cant send stuff to reiping...so she now kb-ing...hahaz...

qianwen, how are you? hahaz...so long nv call you le...that day have to hang up earlier...so sad sia...anyway you have to sleep le ba...hahaz...anyway, have to discuss fyp le....

adios amigo~

i hate hosiptals

2009-09-20T01:40:00.002+08:00

haiz...after climbing BT, goin to sungei and neesoon, 3 of us aka reiping, yy n me, all vomited....to think of it, i was the only one who went to hospital...for drip... T-T sadded sia...now still on probation...till sunday...now its 1.39am....just ate my medicine...haiz....i hate it when the needle poe rght thru your hand...i feel like vomitting again....*shivers* damn it man....why i hate hospital? the doctors keep on poking the wrong side of my hand and den tell me" oh..sorry, wrong side..." F**king hell man...ends wif a smile too...haiz....i think i better go rest...i hope my blog dun get too mouldy....hahaz....

pictures!!

2009-09-20T01:17:00.003+08:00

sick at home

2009-09-20T00:40:00.004+08:00

so many things happened!!! HAIYO!!! which to say first? oh ya!!! i went skul to attend jessie tong briefing den WTF...no one went there lahz...like half the class not there sia...i find myself quite gong...i went to get YiN's birthday present wif pei pei n frauleen n reiping...den we when to this shopping mall...one that is quite empty...hahaz....den we saw this very tall gal....really tall one...i can say no guy can compare wif her....hahaz....anyway, we went lots of places....i kinda forget whether is it the same day or not....hahaz....so i remember we when PS...den pei pei whacked my headset and bought me a new one...love you pei!!!

hahaz...den we when to cotton on and finally changed my shorts to another colour....hahaz...and F-ing hell...yishun have cotton on....lol man....hahaz.... anyway, shall intro yishun on my next entry....hahaz...in the end, we didnt get anything there....but we had lunch at cafe cartel...saw this pretty little angel...hahaz...naughty and cute...den pei pei accompany me back yishun to buy the present and we bought 7 letters, E-E-Y-I-N, one hippo and one sotong....so cute!!! den we bought another necklace wif another pendant for YiN...hope she likes it...hahaz...

den on YiN's birthday, i meet pei pei at JP to buy coloured papers for the present den went to dover for the very "impt" gathering for the jessie tong thingy but in the end, its HTA briefing us lahz...walau...bluff our feelings....i went there at 1 something lehz....den we finished YiN's present and went to meet the others at bugis....nuah all the way there and den still have 40mins to nuah...so we keep buying food to stuff our mouths, see see look look...when all arrived, we went to blue ray bar for dinner...had fun there and keep playing wif the cam...hahaz....pictures below....but more at YiN's phone and bren's cam....

in skul

2009-08-31T16:33:00.003+08:00

haiz...just after exams...so sianz...noe how to do but forget at the very impt time...haiz... SIBEI sianz...wanna @#$%^&^%$#@#*....now bia-ing p&f...in lib with yoke yee...wad a sad and tired day....even double cheeseburger wont help...where is my chocolate? haiz... my 精神支柱gone~

ps: sibei sianz....

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mugging like shit

2009-08-30T01:30:00.002+08:00

drop a quick comment

I HATE EXAMS!

AHHHHHH!!!!!!! so sianz!!! haiz...pp chem so many things to memorize...still got p&f....Aia gone case....why muz we have exams....why??why???WHY???

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Mugging in skul

2009-07-30T12:03:00.002+08:00

wa..now si bei sian...got so many reports to do, so many case study to compile...SI BEI SIANZ!!!! in skul waiting for time to pass... =.= but its always fun to work hard with my groupmates..coz you will get that feeling of satisfaction when you finish something...hahaz...so contradicting....hahaz...hmmm...gonna go off le...have to work harder le!!! hahaz... ADIOS AMIGO~~

lost over the time

2009-07-19T17:23:00.004+08:00

wow....i think my blog rusty le...hahaz...well...i just had my birthday on 16th...had so much fun that day...i have practical in the morning until 10 something den they brought me to dhoby ghaut and we went to eat at...er....forgot what is the name of the place le...hahaz...superb nice!!! while we waiting for the food to be served, they gave me my brithday present and guess what! hahaz...they bought me a dress and 3 belts!!! and the craziest thing is , they want me to put it on right away...hahaz....so i spontanously put it on...and wow...its like from ng suling to ee sherlin...hahaz...lol...not i say de arz...but i feel weird wearing it...hahaz...den after that, we went for movies and haiz....mrs lee that ungrateful woman lo!!!! zhong se qing you...haiz...anyway, we watched harry potter 6...so nice...at the end when the headmaster died, i cried lo...so sad...den lizhen that bastard keep saying he very sianz...wtf...spoil mood sia...hahaz...den after that, i rushed down to amk to meet ah bao, bryan, yijie, syazwan, ben, miss neo and shifu for k box session...sing until 12 something den took bus home....tired but happy day...hahaz...

hai....now my zen stone not working....sianz....just after work...so many things to do...but dunno what to do first...dunno where to start...sianz arz!!!!

long time no see~~

2009-06-20T21:05:00.002+08:00

hahaz...i'm back!!! wow...i think i very long nv update le ba...hahaz.... let me see...did i mention i went to watch night at the museum twice? once wif ah bao they all and another wif pat n wes...hahaz...crazy horz? but heck...if i mention that b4, means i've mentioned it...sorry...repeating myself again...hahaz... lol..

on the mon of the first week of holidays, i went to meet ernest, jacyln and yoke yee for buying of items for bbq at yoke yee's house...so i met up wif them at 10am at clementi mrt station...poor ernest sick lo...hahaz...yoke drove us to imm first and we went to giant and choose the items...den halfway thru, i told yoke yee that we should get the items from fairprice coz really cut cost...den we went and placed everything we took back...lol...waste of time lo...hahaz...lol at ourselves...den yy drove us to JP...went to fairprice and got hundred over dollars stuff...first time buying so many bottles of sambal chilli at once...hahahz....then after that, we went back yy's house and marinate the stingrays, prawns and sotongs...hahaz...while we are marinating, ernest sleeping in yy's room...poor thing again...sleep on the floor...hahaz....anyway, jac n yy n me chatted while hands on-ing..shared some secrets and had fun....hahaz....after that, yy went out to meet up wif the rest of the class...we had fun that day...took lots of photos also...hahaz...but not me lahz...i dun look good that day...BHD....bad hair day...hahaz...after the bbq, xy n ernest n zhen n yy n jac n me went kbox-ing~~ hahaz.,...should ask xy and yy go tgt...you should see them crazy mode on man...change the lyrics into some porno stuff...wow...no wonder they are fei wen couples...hahaz....acted like one...hahaz...

okie let me see...wads next?? went movies wif pat...watched drag me to hell and ghost of past galfriends....nice show for the ghost of past galfriends and quite a gruesome and funny show for drag me to hell...hahaz....oh ya...i watched on two different days!!! didnt marathon...though i really wan...hahaz....had dinner there too...

next! lianjie came out of the hell army so we went out to have dinner..tgt wif ah bao n bryan...had botak jones at chong pang there...wow...thats the largest hogdog i've ever seen man...wow....after that, mahjong-ing~...lost quite alot... >.<

my life is going so fast, i cant see thing properly anymore....

photo~~

2009-06-11T03:27:00.003+08:00

night out

2009-06-11T03:02:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey!!! yup...long time nv update le...hahaz....too many things happened in a go...so too busy to update...alright...where should i start den...hmmm...

on the 28th may, 12 of us went out...got yy, rp, sy, yin, sc, xy, ray, jac, bren, cp, frauleen and me!! we went to orchard to have buffet at sakura~ nice and full~~ i guess we are noisy ones there...hahaz...after the nice nice buffet, we went to ps to shop shop...in the end, we ended up in arcade playing...so long since i've seen ray playing silent hill...hahaz...after that, we walk abit more den went home...everyone's like dunno where to go so abit sad not to continue the fun...

on the 29th may, after our prac, 7 of us went out...got yy, ernest, zl, ray, roy, dennis and me...we went ps again...wanted to watch movie so waited for that zl to come...in the end, we waited for around 2 hrs...haiz...we split into 2 gp...me n yy one gp...the guys one gp...coz they wanted to play lan but yy dun wan so me and yy went shopping...hahaz...had a very yummy yoghurt at the basement of ps... and saw pat and wes working at the anti-smoke campaigne...me and yy recieved 2 timezone card when we ans some questions and walked thru this game...hahaz...after zl came, we watched terminator salvation at TC....wow...i love the sound effect of the movie man!!! so nice!!!! hahaz...den after that, some crazy guy suggested go kovan eat so we went kovan for dinner...i didnt eat coz mummy cooked...in the end, i went home and ate air...mum once again cheated my feelings...haiz...

on 30th of may, pat n wes asked me for nights out...so i went since i'm free... i have to say sorry to them man...i took them all the way to thompson road but i didnt know where the hell is the whole stretch of goodie food...so in the end, we ended up in chomp chomp...first time there!!! al the food quite ex there wor... but the sugar cane drink is damn big and damn cheap...3 of us drink until full...hahaz...den after food, we decided on movie so to keep myself awake, i need something funny...in the end, i watched night at the museum 2...for the 4th time...hahaz... stubborn me.... :) ... den when it comes to 6am, pat drove me home and i slept on the way back...hahaz...

so on the next day, i fell sick!! until now!!! hahaz...okie..i know its nth funny but i'm recovering soon!!!

on 5th of june, we celebrated ah bao's bdae at 414...his mum booked the table for zhu chao and we ate yummy food there!!!hahaz...but b4 that, bryan and i met up to go occ play pool!!! coz ah bao and friends there too!!! den we went back and continued mahjong-ing!!! but b4 that actual date, laoba bought a power ranger cake for him!!!

i think thats all ba...hahaz...photo coming up next~~

my first time being a waitress

2009-05-22T16:13:00.002+08:00

ytd , i went to work at cityhall wif roy, ernest and teck whye....my first time being a waitress wor...its fun but the tray were damn heavy!!! even now, my hands are still hurting...omg...hahaz...the angmohs accent damn deep and it makes us more singaporean...hahaz...i so wanted to drink the wine lo...but in the end, we got to drink the jucies...buay pai lahz...at least the food was nice! hahaz...we got to know some one the sp graduates and one np guy and one queensway sec gal...so emo sia the gal...hahaz...anyway, fun and nice experience...too bad phototaking weren't allowed...hahaz..if not another page full of photos...hahaz... :)

sentosa trip!

2009-05-22T14:50:00.017+08:00

hahaz...i know i know...i owe alot of posts...too many things to do le....hahaz...okie...i'll start with sentosa trip wif my classmates!!

we went sentosa on thurs and meeting pt is harbourfront mrt station. then we went in by the train and reached siloso beach by the cute monorail...erm...no sure whether is it mono rail or not...hahaz...anyway, we took lots of pictures...hahaz...we played beach volleyball first...warm up abit..its like two groups of ppl trying to get the ball on air...so funny when ppl starts being polite and shy...hahaz...in the end, my group lost! wtf rite? hahaz...anyway, after that, we played captain's ball...my group super duper CMI...lost in the end...just as expected...hahaz...den everyone parched and tired...so we rested for awhile...after we started to have water games, no one wanted to play balls...hahaz...they threw shuying and yokeyee down...damn funny lahz...and shuying more jialat...they say she vey heavy...hahaz...lol man... dun paiseh arz shuying....hahaz...lol..after the crazy bunch of ppl were truely tired and hungry, they went bathing...hahaz...went back to vivo and had dinner at the amiphitheater...most of us got sunburn and wow, its hurts...hahaz...in the end, all of us went back home...so thats about it...hahaz...we had fun and laughter that day...hope we can proceed on to wild wild wet or ice skating...hahaz... :)

today

2009-05-06T16:27:00.002+08:00

photos of me in class...without my notes and distracting my beloved laopos~

ice skating!!

2009-05-06T16:01:00.004+08:00

last sat, i went out wif bao, bryan, laoba and lianjie....we went cityhall for breakfast...yeah...got up so early just for breakfast...hahaz...it's located somewhere near penisular plaza...its in a hotel...3 star hotel...hmmm....the price quite reasonable...around 16++...oh ya, its buffet style so we ordered lots of food and we eat and eat and eat...hahaz..i learnt something new there...if you are thirsty, pls..die also dun order drinks there....3.50 for a glass of fucking coke...so little and so much ice...hahaz...3 kum goong kia ordered and they drink so slow...hahaz...den after eating, we wanted to go chinatown $10 dollar singing session but didnt suceed doin that so we went to ice skate at kallang....

it was damn fun though i kept falling down...earned myself a few bruises...hahaz...my first time learning ice skating and i think i look dumb...ah bao told me to try and lean on one leg first b4 learning to use both legs...so in the end i looked like i'm limping...so ugly!! not elegant at all...haiz...but wad to do...1st time you know...at least at the end of the session, i can skate for short distances....hahaz...not like some one...the hands nv leave the bars at all...hahaz...my dear laoba....all the while, he hands nv leave the bars...hahaz...but cannot blame him...he old le...hahaz....no lahz...leg injury...poor thing...he told us he almost performed a split b4 going back to the sitting place amd swearing...hahaz...

in the end, everyone, except laoba, was wet and tired and still wet...my shorts are wet...damn wet...i could squeeze water out...i'm damn cold too...hahaz...after the ice skating session, we cabbed back yishun 414 to have our dinner and went back home for a shower b4 proceeding for our mahjong session...hahaz...yep...lost money again...hahaz...coz keep on fang pao..hahaz...

i hope my bruises can go off~

i'm looking at you~~

what a luck

2009-04-25T22:11:00.002+08:00

on fri, i went dinner with uncle kevin at amk...wow...1st time at fish & co...damn ex..we ordered seafood platter for 2 but i think its more like for 4...so many to finish....i felt so guilty when i left the place...hmmm....i had earl grey tea...superb nice!!! the funny thing is i can't eat prawns so kevin told the waiter to change the prawns into something else like more calamaries...in the end, i tot when the waiter served us, the extra calamaries were served tgt...however, it wasn't!! so half way through, the waiter came back to us, asking whether we want our extra calamaries to be served anot...i was shocked! damn full!!! back it was nice...i love the mussels... :)

after that superb nice meal, we went to catch a movie...Too Fast Too Furious 4...nice! i like the sound effects...though i was freezing inside the theater...hahaz....but worth it man! and btw, kevin treated me...so sweet...thanks man...hahaz... why am i thanking so many ppl nowadays...? hahaz...wadever...after that, mahjong at bao's house...as usual...and had breakfast too!!! 1st time this year i had a breakfast....yup, you should buy 4d...hahaz....

anyway, after that very short nap, i went out with lewis...well, dun feel like sayin in details...hahaz....dun ask why! thats about it den...i came back to yishun, feeling shitty...so i went to my fav place...the library...went there and read books...sat there around 2 hrs and came back feeling abit better den shit...hahaz...talked to the aunties at fairprice...

felt better after that and came home...ate some gluey veg and some stone hard meat...the soup was nice...but i hardly taste anything...feels so sianz again...switched on the tv, watched princess diaries...played some games at fb...

what can i do to lighten my damn life....?

haiz...

nevertheless, life's like that and life goes on....

nightmare

2009-04-24T10:31:00.002+08:00

i feeling very depressed now

wad can i do to tell you i dun mind nt meeting you as often

but the best is not to affect your studies

i had the best memories with you

i won't forget you

goodbye....

the truth

2009-04-23T23:15:00.002+08:00

its depressing to know that you've done something wrong....the prob is the person dun even care...dun know wad that person is thinking...i'm so dispirited...i just wan to know more abt that person...i wan to be in the circle that person's in...haiz....i hate it...

i am so swearing off alcohols..UrgH!!! gosh...

i hate myself...